lost inspiration

guys....*ugh* if you did know my dad passed away in december 4th, just today i put my head to the world again just to figured out what happend, and honestly i lost inspiration for draw, i lost part of it when my grandmother died, and now i lost the rest of it, so, im very sad and confused at the same time, sometimes i got ideas and pictures in my mind but they got blew, andalso my draws now dont have the "soul" than before, i see it like a nonsense doodles in a paper, in yanuary i start college again and gets full with work, my dad always just tell me "wow this is your best draw, keep going" "this is amazing" "draw me frogs" "let me take a picture to show this in my ofice" i miss that, the house is very quiet. i dont think im going to submit draws anymore i found it now usseless, something that makes me happy now is painfull